Bored (Aren't I Always?)

After today I have just 2 more days of my 12 days off of work left and, apart from the eye correction procedure (I feel like a fraud if I say eye surgery, even though technically it was), I feel like I have once again wasted my time off.
I did go out at the end of last week, but I was hoping to get out a bit more and see lots of people. I have been to see Tim, which is something that I had wanted to do since he came out of hospital. But, overall, I have done nothing and I am bored.
I am slightly limited by what I can do, because I have to administer eye drops every 2 hours. Yes, I can take the drops with me, but it isn't really ideal, or always hygienic. I suppose I am just making excuses. I could have gone to the rugby yesterday. I could have tried to arrange to meet people for lunch (though this never meets with success with the people I know, it's drinks or nothing!). I'm stuck in a rut I think. I even have a legitimate excuse not to join the gym at the moment, as Optimax tell me to avoid exercise for 3 months.
I guess what I really need, what I have wanted for a long LONG time, is someone to be HERE for me. Someone to hold me. What I need (and needed especially in the 3 hours after my eye procedure) was someone to look after me. Sometimes I just need a hug from a strong man. I can't remember the last time I had that.
All I have to look forward to, on my last 2 days off, is another appointment at Optimax on Tuesday morning. It's times like this that make me want to go cottaging / cruising again, for the thrill of it and for the possibility of human contact, no matter how unemotional it may be. I'm desperately trying to avoid this temptation though.