WLTM - Erik Rhodes

Being a typical man I am a fan of pornographic films. Being a gay man I am a fan of gay pornographic films. Most such men, at some point, would like to "meet" a gay porn star. One of the most interesting porn stars of the current era, for me, would be Erik Rhodes.

Erik is a gorgeous model, with the type of muscular physique I love (but never get to experience), has a beautiful penis (naturally) and, like me, suffers from depression. This last point is what makes him a person I would love to talk to and compare notes with.

Last year I discovered that Erik writes his own blog, another thing we have in common, and is very honest and open about how he feels and about what he does in his private and professional lives. A quality that I admire, but there is one thing that I don't understand, and have never understood when others have done it: Drugs.

Drug use is prevalent in modern day society and within the gay community there is a lot of opportunity and pressure to experiment with and constantly use any variety of drugs, legal or otherwise. I have never understood this, mainly because I am a slight coward, scared of what would happen if I did, and also because of my (mostly) responsible nature, not wanting to risk it legally and thus my employment status. If it wasn't for my fear though, I think that I would probably have experimented more than I have (all I have done is: one puff of a spliff, passively smoked Skunk several times, taken half an E and tasted the residue of a cocaine wrap).

I would love to discuss with Erik why he uses drugs, if it affects his depression, and how he copes with his depression, if he does cope or just tries to ignore it. I would also love to know if the industry he is in, which has a high proportion of suicides, is a factor in his depression, if he always suffered from it (as I have) or if other factors, outside of his employment choice, have caused / exacerbated his illness.

I also think that sharing our thoughts, coping mechanisms and experiences would be great for both of us. I very rarely get the chance to discuss my depression with someone in person, let alone with a fellow sufferer. The experience would be a great opportunity for me and I hope for Erik too.