Is It Me?

Just wanted to give you all an example of the level of intelligence in some of the security guard force I have to work with lately. I asked one of my colleagues to go and escort a contractor around one of our secure areas on the 6th floor. His reply to my request was:

"Which 6th floor?"

I will say no more!

I Feel Bad Now

I feel terrible that I forgot to mention that today was also Independence Day in Malaysia. I have at least 24 readers in Malaysia, so I apologise profusely to all you guys, and hope that you had a good day.

Today is Independence Day in Trinidad & Tobago, so I would like to take this opportunity to say "Hi" to my one-and-only reader there. I don't know who you are, but thanks for "tuning in."

Face to 4get

I forgot to mention that I went into town today to get my comics, forgetting that it was a Bank Holiday week and the comics wouldn't be in until tomorrow. Very annoying, especially as I missed my bus there by seconds and had to wait and then walk half way, and then when I got the bus back I had no credit on my Oyster card and so had to pay full price.
While I was in Old Compton Street I did see an actor in Balans Cafe. Hamish Clark used to be in Monarch of the Glen, playing Duncan (and also used to be the face of Vodafone adverts). I've seen him in Soho a few time now, but not recently.

Time For Changes

I have come to the conclusion that it is time to make some major changes in my life (again). I need to decide what EXACTLY I am going to do though.
I want to move. I need to get back into a flat of my own, so that I feel like it is my home, and not just a place I am lodging. It is going to be a hell of a lot more expensive, but I would feel happier.
I also have to decide what I am going to do about the business, whether I am going to continue giving it a go even though I don't feel happy with it at the moment.
Even if I do decide to carry on with the business, I can't afford to give up full-time work until the money begins to come in regularly. I need to change my job as I am so bored and disinterested at my current place it is doing my head in. I feel physically sick just at the thought of coming in most days. AND I really do not like most of the people who work there now. The older members of staff are mainly alright (with notable exceptions: NC [the people I work with will know who he is])
I feel that I also need to get back to the gym (my legs have been aching lately quite badly, which I think may be due to bad circulation).
As I stated previously, I think I need to get back to my G.P. and get back on my anti-depressants.
To all of this requires money, which I don't have at the moment. I hope to be getting a bonus with this months pay, but, even if I do, this is only £250 before tax so won't be able to sort all of the above. I need a run of good fortune, and a run of money coming in. Now I could work over time to get that money, but I just can't face it. Any suggestions.

Back to PAID work

I just want to state that:

I DON'T WANT TO GO BACK TO WORK!!!!!!! IT IS SO UNFAIR!!!!!

I have had 2 weeks off from the place and, although I didn't do anything exciting and I was bored for most of the time, I really do not EVER want to go back there! Especially as there is 1 person I HATE working with and I am stuck with him for 2 DAYS! I don't know how I am going to cope.
On top of that I am not coping with my depression well and I think I may need to go back on the anti-depressants again. I am going to give it a little while longer, but I think that I will have to go back to my G.P.

Brothers (Oh Brothers!)

I managed to catch an episode of Brothers & Sisters (a program I intended to watch every episode of when it first began!), and Jason Lewis is now in it as an annoyingly bisexual actor. I say "annoyingly" because he is coming on to the gay son (sorry, not used to their names yet) one minute, and the next snoggin his girlfriend in from of him the next! Just the sort of guy I would probably end up with if I ever managed to snag a man!

At least there is a VERY good chance of seeing him semi-naked though (always a good thing!).

Rob Lowe is still HOT too! It's those cheek-bones! Gonna make more of an effort to catch the series now. Strangly enough, I'm more interested in Brothers & Sisters than I am in Heroes, there must be something wrong with me!

At the office....

I planned to come into the office a bit later than normal today, so I could get a good sleep and save a few pounds by not travelling during peak times. But I woke up at 07:00 so I decided to get the usual train at 07:55. Got to the office and I couldn't log onto the internet via the laptop, which was a pain. Eventually sorted it with the help of Angela.

Still no clients though.

Encouraging signs (I hope)

Last night, I had packed my bags and gotten into bed ready to go to work this morning, when I received a call from a potential client planning to move abroad and wanting our help in advising him of the best area to live. It isn't exactly the information that we had set out to provide for clients, and I realised that this client wouldn't pay for the service, so I decided to give him some free advice.
I decided not to go to the office, but arranged to phone him back this morning, after I'd researched the area thoroughly. I did phone him and gave him the details of our website along with the free information, which he seemed grateful for. Hopefully it will lead to him coming back to us, or at least passing on our details to someone else.
We are still awaiting that breakthrough first client to get the ball rolling for us. I really hope it comes soon.

Hammer Time

While out last night Richard mentioned that he had been watching the athletics and had seen a gorgeous Japanese hammer-thrower. I just had to check him out today.

His name is Koji Murofushi and I can confirm that, yes, he is gorgeous! He is also the Olympic gold medal winner at Athens in 2004 and should be competing next year in Beijing too.

Penned In!

I did go out last night and met up with Tim and Richard, surprisingly enough our mate Paul was out too, I haven't seen him for months. He is now working again and so I hope we see him regularly again.
We were joined by other friends Terry, Mark and Graham and had quite a nice night. I say "quite nice" because although it was a nice night and I didn't mind standing outside, I did mind that we had to stay within a restricted area meaning that we were crammed onto narrow pathways or behind tensa-barriers. This made me feel very uncomfortable and restricted.
There were a few nice guys around and I got comments on how nice my arse looked, but this was only from the crowd I was with unfortunately. I have been told before that it is my best feature (says alot for my face!).
We went to Mr Wu's just before it closed and then all went our separate ways home.

Oops, I did it again!

Sorry I missed another day, but I had nothing to report yesterday. Today the hot weather had taken me by surprise and still I've been sat in my room working (for about 3 hours) and then finishing off Harry Potter and the Deathly Harrows, which I loved after my initial reservations.
I am meeting Tim and Richard for drinks later and so intend to be in no fit state to blog tomorrow either!

Featured Article

Today on Wikipedia their featured article is on Jake Gyllenhaal, my boy. As I haven't featured him for a while I thought I's share some of my pictures with y'all! Everytime I see him I feel more and more attracted to him!

Flag Day

Also today we have a Flag Day in the Ukraine, so "Hi" to my 3 Ukrainian readers.

Birthday Boys

Today we are celebrating the birthdays of 2 good-looking guys, often overlooked.

First we have American actor Scott Caan, son of James, who is a movie star in his own right, having starred in movies such as Into The Blue and Ocean's 11, 12 & 13! He is an attractive guy who often gets caught in unflattering pictures, much like myself (lol)! Scott is 31 today.

Secondly we have British stuntman turned actor, Ray Park (not the football stadium!), who is 33 today. Best known for playing Darth Maul in Star Wars: The Phantom Menace, he also played Toad in the first X-Men movie and has been set to play Iron Fist (another Marvel hero movie) though this has been "in progress" for a few years now.

Happy Birthday Boys!

Sorry

Sorry for not posting anything for the last 2 days. I have been at the office during the day and Tuesday I didn't have the energy to blog and yesterday I couldn't do it from home as our new and "improved" broadband connection wouldn't let me. I could get onto most internet sites, but as soon as it asked for log-in-info, or I attempted to send a message..................nothing!
I hope to make up for this over the upcoming weekend.

Aren't Mates Great?

I have been feeling quite low lately, probably due to me coming off my medication about a month ago, and I haven't had anyone really that I felt comfortable enough with to talk to about my feelings.
I've also had second thoughts about the business I have recently launched, wondering whether I want to continue with it, or just give up and leave it all behind.
I sent an email to one of my closest friends (emotionally close that is), Deano in Melbourne, explaining this and, within the hour, he had phoned me in response, to reassure me and give me the emotional pick-up I needed.
It was so good to talk to him, sometimes I just sat there listening to his advice and reassurance without talking and had to keep reminding myself to say something just so that he knew I was still listening.
I really miss Deano, since he moved back to Aus my group of local close friends has reduced to 1 (Tim) and since coming off my anti-depressants I have become more and more aware of this. We used to go out for drinks and have a good laugh, and Dean is also the only close friend I have who also reads comics. I really felt better after talking to him.

I have been so low that I purchased a bottle of St John's Wort capsules from the health shop, as I'd read that it was a good natural remedy for depression. I does seem to work, but doesn't last very long. Maybe if I keep taking it I will build up a level in my body to prolong the effects. I've also started eating more bananas which I've also heard are good for depression. Lets hope that they do the job otherwise I will have to go back to the doctor and go back on Sertraline. I'd rather not do that but am not ruling it out.

Luckily, right at this moment, I am okay. Writing about it does help, slightly. It is part of the reason I began this blog, as a new form of diary (which I used to keep) without having to store hundreds of little notebooks and with the ability to add pictures and share with people I don't even know.
Similarly I also wrote an "autobiography" a few years back, as a form of therapy. Titled "Cormorant" (for reasons too long to explain here), it was very cathartic and I recommend it for everyone. I can guarantee that more has happened in your life than you initially can think of. I managed 67 pages of typed A4 [12-font, I believe], separated into 10 chapters, and that was only up to about 4 years ago. I'm sure that I could add at least 2 more chapters since then. I hope, one day, that it will be published.

Birthday Twins

Today we are celebrating a wonderful and rare thing: Handsome, Rugby playing twins! Aahhhh!!!

Felipe and Manuel Contepomi are 30 today and hail from Argentina. Felipe, who is the better looking of the pair (sorry Manuel, though I wouldn't kick either of you out of bed) currently plays for Leinster in Ireland and Manuel plays for Bristol.

Both boys have been named in Argentina's World Cup squad, so here's hoping for some costume malfunctions during the tournament!

Happy Birthday Boys.

Solo, I mean Soho Pride!!

I was actually feeling really chirpy yesterday as I got ready to go to Soho Pride. I sent a text to Tim to say when I was heading into town and only got a reply when I was on my way to say that he wasn't going to go. My mood sunk from this point.
I got into Soho and had a wander around, I first walked through Soho Square and couldn't believe how empty it was. Normally it is impossible to walk around the Square at a normal pace due to the crowds, but I would say there were only about 100-150 people in the whole Square!
I walked along Old Compton Street, through Rupert Street and down to Barcode in Archer Street where I got my first pint (there were 2 other drinkers in there!).
The d.j. at the end of Archer Street seems to be the best stage every Soho Pride and so I stayed around that area for the most part.
I saw the gorgeous guy who used to be a barman in downstairs Barcode and filled out a competition entry he was promoting. If he had been alone I may felt more like chatting him up.
I saw few people I actually knew, most of them just well enough to say "Hello" and that was it.
I had 2 more pints, from Rupert Street, and then decided enough was enough and began walking back towards where I would catch a bus.
At the Duke of Wellington I saw Tim's BBC mate Jim and stopped to chat to him and his mates for a few minutes before heading off home.

I actually walked all the way home and my legs were killing me by the time I got in. I actually had a couple of hours sleep and then watched "Dude, Where's My Car" at 22:00.

The pub alarm went off at just before 02:00 and I had to get up and wake Kevin as he never hears the bloody thing himself. I didn't get to sleep until about an hour later.

Rain, Rain, Go Away

Okay so God obviously hates us poofs! OK, that's a bit unfair (especially as God doesn't exist!), But, after 2 (or is it 3) years of fantastic weather for Soho Pride and London Pride he has lumbered us with a whole year of CRAP weather! I went to bed last night and it was raining, I thought "Good, it'll all be gone by the morning!", but I was wrong, whenI woke up it was, and still is, raining!

With the weather like it is, I really do not feel like hanging about outside pubs all day! I want to see lots of gorgeous muscular men with their tops off! (But then again, I want to see that everyday!)

A Few Drinks

I decided to go out last night, as I fancied a drink. No one I knew was out, Tim didn't get back to me until late (though I couldn't hear his voicemail message in the downstairs bar of Barcode and accidentally erased the message!). I only spoke to 2 people, Vlad in Rupert Street, of course, and a cute guy called John in Barcode who gave me his Gaydar profile name (or at least I though he had, but I couldn't find him when I looked earlier!).
There were plenty of hotties out, but nothing for me :-(

Oh well, Soho Pride tomorrow.

Birthday Porn God

Today is the birthday of a gay porn legend. Ken Ryker, owner of probably the largest cock in the business (taking into consideration length AND girth), is a mere 35 today. You'll have to check out his cock somewhere else though.
And he is younger than me! Who would've thunk it?
Ken is one of my favourite porn stars, though not quite in my Top Ten Men. Happy Birthday Ken.

Fantasy Football

I never pertain to know much about football, though I do know a lot more than I used to! But, after yesterday's matches in the English Premiership I am top of one of the Fantasy Football mini-leagues, the Premiere League's own one, after getting 57 points on the one day. I'm well chuffed, it will not last I know so I am going to savour it while it does last.

Birthday Boys

Today, we have Australian actor Kyal Marsh celebrating his 20th birthday. I usually do not fancy guys this young, but there is something about Kyal that attracts me. Best known for playing Boyd in Neighbours, it has been reported that he has left the show this month, so no doubt he will be seen over here in the UK over the next few months. Also today we have American actor George Stults celebrating his 32nd birthday. Other than 1 episode each of Will & Grace and Friends, I haven't heard of anything else that he has been in. But he is a bit cute.

Happy Birthday Boys!