Stressed, More Stressed, Slightly Better, Stressed Again

I have been amazingly stressed recently mostly caused by the same source (my employers). As you may have guessed (from my constant whining and moaning) I hate my current job. I have been short of money since I moved into my new flat, but when my employers neglected to pay me a days holiday 3 weeks ago, it left me £40 short of my rent. They refused to correct the mistake on the day, and it was still not in my account the following pay day. It wasn't until the pay day after that, when it wasn't paid AGAIN, that I finally got a direct payment into my account (though this was paid on emergency tax, meaning it was still about £10 short). During the first 2 weeks of this I had £2.44 left of my £1000 overdraft, and less than £5 change in my wallet. I was lucky to be able to borrow £40 from Terry and also lucky that I was able to sell some Star Wars toys on Gumtree, which was the only way that I was actually able to eat during the first 2 weeks of this hassle. I was close to tears on several occasions.

This weekend I had to manage a team that was short (because of my employers again), and deal with a mass of contractors working on several of the floors of the building. We had to abandon some patrols and were running late, but my "colleagues" were still taking extra time on ALL of their breaks and, when I confronted one of them, was told "If you don't like it, report me!" Which is exactly what I was trying to avoid as this makes things more difficult for the whole team. For my own sanity though I had to do it, so spoke to my manager on Monday. He was less than supportive, and so I doubt anything will happen about it, but at least I've told him and so the blame is off my shoulders.
Over the weekend I became aware of an organisation, Hampers Against Hunger, who are applying to become a registered charity, that provide packages of food and supplies for less fortunate individuals and families. I've been looking for a charity that I can really support for a while and so thought that I could do something for these guys. I sent an email to the Client Services Manager at work and asked if there was anything he could do, approaching him because he is a liaison between ALL the departments in the building, including the other tenants and facilities. He spoke to me yesterday and after a conversation which looked like it was heading towards a "No" he agreed that he could probably prepare a box of something. I felt really good after that conversation, and it made me feel better about the whole stressful period. I should have known it wouldn't last.
I got an email today from my manager telling me that by approaching the Client Services Manager it could be construed as bribery or corruption, all because I asked for donations of food that might go out of date before everyone gets back after the New Year. I've been told in no uncertain terms that all future requests should be put through him first (presumably so that he can take credit for it like he does with everything else I do there). I am fuming now and back to my previous high stress level. Bastards. Hopefully Hampers Against Hunger will still get the donation though.
Oh and another guard has gone from the site I work on too. We heard by email yesterday, the day before he was due to return after his rostered days off. There are only 10 regular guards on site now, "coincidentally" the new roster pattern that my employers have suggested "might" be implemented in the New Year, only requires 10 regular staff. Look how that turned out eh!

I am now off work for 4 days, having to go back on Saturday night, which is when the Kings Cross Steelers are having their Christmas party, as you can imagine, I am not going to be in a good mood that night having to miss what is probably going to be a great party with lots of chances of getting off with sexy guys in the team.
I do have something to look forward to though. I am going out on Friday night with Tim and Niall and we are going to have a meal, which makes a nice change from just going to a bar / pub every time.